I was reading a note on K's fb, and, well, I realized we hurt each other.

in a way she broke my heart. She was my Best Friend. I truly believed she was like my other half. I was never in love with her, but i loved her so so much. And then she wasn't the girl i loved anymore. she was someone else. I didn't give that person a chance because she had taken away the person that I loved.

it hurts, losing your best friend.

I don't think a guy could ever hurt me the way she did. Not even Drew. I loved her without reservations. I trusted her with everything. (Okay, not that far. Even I don't think I could be so open - but it was as close as possible).

There were so many times I wanted to call her up before, ask how she was doing, but my pride and fear got better of me, and i let those moments slip by.

And now... I think we're still cautious with each other. We don't talk about the time we weren't really friends. That's in the past. Not that we'll forget, its just part of our history. The History of Us. I'd rather not dwell on the bad. Just embrace the good.

But she's back in my life, and its a time when i desperately need her.

It's funny. I have both Karen and Lindsey back in my life. Lindsey is my oldest and dearest friend. Earlier this year, I thought that maybe... maybe we weren't as close as I had originally thought. Maybe it was just a thought that we were close.

But then I saw her again, this year, at Fall Fair. And instead of going to a bar with no power with the rest of our friends and family, we sat and talked for hours, just to catch up. And i remembered what it was like, 10-15 years ago when we were kids, and she was my Best Friend. She still is. We pick up right where we left off like nothing's changed. It's so amazing to have someone like that.

I think Lindsey will always be like that. No matter what happens in life, no matter how many years it is until we talk/see each other again, we will always pick up where we left off.

As for Karen... well... apparently I'm going to be her sister-in-law one of these days, so it's not like she can get rid of me anytime soon.